God told me to Ask, Seek and Knock. I did. And NOW WHAT?
“[a]Ask and keep on asking and it will be given to you; seek and keep on seeking and you will find; knock and keep on knocking and the door will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who keeps on asking receives, and he who keeps on seeking finds, and to him who keeps on knocking, it will be opened.” Matt 7:7&8 AMPLIFIED
Footnotes: Matthew 7:7 Here the use of Greek present imperatives (asking, seeking, knocking; vv 7, 8) emphasizes persistent, constant prayer.
At different times during our years together, Joe and I talked about what either one of us would do if the other one died first.
Joe gave me very clear instructions. “Don’t you dare die before I do! I have no idea what I would do if that happened! And I know you will make it.”
We both knew what I would do: spend some time in the states with my kids, but go to Brazil and live there most of the time in our small “Nest” of an apartment in Natal. RN, located on the coast in the northeastern part of Brazil
I obeyed him, like a good wife should? J And he went Home first, as he wanted.
However, that is the only thing that went “according to plan!”
We both knew that his pensions would end at his death, and he had almost no life insurance. But neither of us realized in a practical sense what that meant.
I found out fast. All the pension payments and VA help stopped immediately.
I didn’t panic, for I know I am in God’s hands. However, I was not emotionally prepared for all the consequences. (The month following Joe’s death, I move out of our apartment to my daughter Sheryl’s home here in Portland. They are a blessing!
Yet, I know this is temporary, and my spirit is unsettled.)
I am asking, seeking and knocking before the Lord, daily… slowly releasing the past, turning my eyes to the future with Him. But, how long do I wait for answers???
Our culture tells me I need to clarify my goals. But what if my future goals are not His goals for me? How does ask, seek and knock fit into all of this
Today I was reading My Utmost for His Highest, the page for July 28th.
“God’s training is for now, not presently. His purpose is for this minute, not for something in the future. We have nothing to do with the results of obedience [on a daily basis.] His purpose is that I depend on Him and on His power now. If I can stay in the middle of the turmoil calm and unperplexed, that is the end of the purpose of God. God is not working towards a particular finish; His purpose is the process- that I see Him walking on the waves, no shore in sight, no success, no goal just the absolute certainty that it is all right because I see Him walking on the sea.
God’s end is to enable me to see that He can walk on the chaos of my life just now. If we have a further end in view, we do not pay sufficient attention to the immediate present.” If you and I realize that what is important is our obedience now, then each moment as it comes is precious.
I will keep asking Him to guide me, seeking His will on a daily basis, knocking on the doors placed before me and see if He opens them.
My daily prayer is: “Lord, guide me. Keep me in Your will. I do not trust my emotions. The doors you want me to go through, if I hesitate, please push me through them. If I start beating on a door to open it, and you don’t want me to go through it, please keep it shut – even if I start kicking on it.
“The Lord isn’t really being slow about his promise, as some people think. No, he is being patient for your sake…” 1 Peter 3:9a NEW LIVING TRANSLATION
Thank you, Father, that You care! that You will continue to walk with me, teaching me. Because I have YOU as my guide through all that is happening around me and in me, I know I will eventually understand. And I will discover happiness beyond belief!
This IS my heart’s cry for each one of us.