What Is My Life Style?

How often do we judge others’ actions by what God tells US to do? 

I have a lifestyle of 3 bedrooms in different places in the world, few possessions except clothes, computer and electronics, and a few hundred books on my Kindle library, some Bibles, two or three knick-knacks that I carry with me to give me a feeling of continuity in my life. 

As I deal with the weight of suitcases on the planes, I am attempting to constantly downsize (I don’t succeed well with that!) 

 
In Portland, Oregon, I have a rocking chair, in Georgia none of the furniture in my bedroom is mine, in Natal, Brazil, my “nest” there is my home… although I am there for only short periods of time and rent it out some. Now in November, the plans are for me to go to Brasilia and stay with some of my “kids” for a period of time. I have no idea right now for how long? 

I would not encourage anyone to have this kind of life. But this is where my loving Father has placed me. 
My joy? is writing and talking about Him- sharing the Good News of Him in our lives – what it really means. 

Sometimes I feel encouraged by the responses. At other times, I weep, for my lack of ability to share and be understood. 
At times I rejoice over what God is doing: my life is full of incredible stories and memories. 
Other times, loneliness camps on my doorstep, and the Lord has to comfort me. 

This is my life. I don’t regret it. I must lean on Him in trust and hang onto His hand. 
Don’t feel sorry for me… my life is rich and full. 

I don’t say this lifestyle is for you. I do say please, open your eyes to see what God is wanting you to do where you are. 

Who do you know who needs love and encouragement that comes from the Lord 
What small things can you do to bless others? It’s amazing how God takes those small things and turns them into wonderful things. 

You don’t have to live my lifestyle and have no permanent home. But our Lord DOES want you to reach out to those around you, with His love (not yours.) 

-voni 

I Didn’t Expect This…

I need to write it out so I’ll know what I’m thinking…

I want to go to bed, but first, write something to you all. I am learning that as I put my thoughts and emotions down on paper it helps me clarify things for myself.

Tonight, my emotions about my daughter, Lanae, and her future husband have surprised me.
They are in their 60’s and have recently discovered the wonder of love between them. They are both surprised by their happiness. Knowing some of the past heartaches in each individual life, I believe that those very heartaches have taught them the meaning of the word “happiness”, so they can experience it in new depths.
I rejoice – and pray for them, for God’s protection over them as they form an enlarged family circle.


But, I am working through some unexpected emotions on my part! This is a surprise to me. Completely unforeseen!

As I watch all that is happening, I remember how deliriously happy Joe and I were when we discovered we loved each other. Going into our 60’s we were both marked by grief. God moved in and turned our worlds upside down (literally.)

We had more than 26 years of a rich and challenging life together. But, now -tonight- my emotions are slapping me in the face with deep loneliness.
So, what do I do now?

Back to Psalms 23.
“The Lord is my Shepherd, I SHALL NOT WANT.”

Once again I must turn to the Holy Spirit to fill my heart with peace and the knowledge that THIS is a promise from God.
If I trust Him, I shall not want.
I don’t always understand the how’s and why’s.
I only know I shall NOT want.


Joy may be intertwined with some tears: that only makes the joy richer.

We CAN trust God.
We CANNOT trust our emotions.
We CAN rejoice in the happiness of those we love.

-voni