I WROTE THIS EXACTLY ONE YEAR AGO – EVEN TO THE SAME HOUR. BUT I WILL HAVE TO CHANGE THE ENDING.
June 8, 2018 at 6:51 PM ·
My apartment in Natal, Brazil, is 592 sq feet.
Definitely a NEST. 2 bedrooms, 2 baths, SMALL kitchen, living area, small balocony. no laundry facilities.
Many Americans would NOT like some of the challenges of living there.
No hot water except in the showers. No dishwasher. (Yes, we wash our dishes in COLD water.. . and we get them clean! :)
We do have Wi-Fi. Unexpected contrasts
Simple and small – and HOME!
I can put up my hammock (barely) on the balcony, see the ocean, feel the breeze, keep my windows and doors open, so the breeze from the ocean swishes through the balcony door, rushing through the living area and out the open front door.
It also comes swirling into the bedrooms, but since there aren’t any large open areas on the other side of the apartment, it meanders through the two bedrooms and hall, to join it’s rowdy cousin blowing through the living area.
This is HOME.
I have no idea why I have this emotional attachment. Perhaps it is because this is the last home that Joe and I had in Brazil, and there are mementos scattered on glass shelves put on different walls. (When the floor area is small, it’s amazing how creative one becomes! :) )
I know ONLY that I need to go home for a period of time. I don’t know what are all the purposes the Lord has for me and my Nest in Natal? Perhaps it is so I can have closure to one phase of my life before I enter the next one?
Only by going there, will I be able to know.
At the moment, I am in Portland, OR with my daughter, Sheryl, and her husband. Hopefully I will go back to Valdosta, GA, to be with another daughter in August.
THIS IS WHERE IT CHANGED… MY PLANS TO RETURN TO BRAZIL ARE STILL ON HOLD.
June 8 2019 6:49 pm
I AM NOW LIKE A SMALL CHILD, HANGING ONTO MY FATHER’S HAND. HE IS TAKING ME ON SOME DETOURS I HAD NOT EXPECTED.
There have been tears, laughter, struggles with myself, missing Joe, learning to trust God more. When I start to become discouraged, I remember Jesus’ words:
Matthew 18:2-4 The Passion Translation (TPT)
“2 Jesus called a little one to his side and said to them, 3 “Learn this well: Unless you dramatically change your way of thinking and become teachable, and learn about heaven’s kingdom realm with the wide-eyed wonder of a child, you will never be able to enter in. 4 Whoever continually humbles himself to become like this gentle child is the greatest one in heaven’s kingdom realm”
The time WILL come when I will think and talk to God as I sit on that tiny balcony, look at His creation around me, feel the sun on my shoulders and the breeze on my face and understand more of what God is doing.
But now, I have to keep walking as a small child.